Biopsy tomorrow *deep breath*

Yeah.  I'm nervous.  One would think with all the poking and prodding over the last 10 years, especially the last year and change, that it wouldn't be that big of a deal.  But this is a bit bigger than just giving blood to the vampires or having the dermatologist take a couple chunks out of my leg at her office when we got the latest inflammation stuffs.  Bleh.  Got an hour and a half left of eat/drink time.  Working on laundry to pack for a weekend stay at the best friend and his wife's house as they've offered up their guest room to me.  Finished taking care of kitties needs for the weekend so not having to worry about them.  Gotta make sure all the meds get packed in the morning so no one's having to come back up here to the apt.  Going to try and just stay Fri night and come home Sat if the kidney will cooperate once all the local anesthesia wears off.  Already missing the comfy bed of awesome and my kitties.  L was awesome and made me soup which is in J & M's fridge waiting for me for tomorrow.  L has lupus and told me what to expect with the biopsy as she's had plenty sadly.  Cliffnotes version is to expect it to hurt.  Between me and you readers, I've been enjoying the 40mg of prednisone and having no pain in my hands or feet or anywhere else for that matter.  Not looking forward to that slow decline to get off of it again, though.  And it also hasn't completely gotten rid of the inflammation red splotchiness in the medium/large blood vessels you can see in my legs.  So not sure if they're going to lower it at all or put me on something else or add something else to the crazy regiment.  lol   So close to having answers yet so far from knowing what the frak is going on and what's going to happen next.

Definitely nervous.  I love surprises, but will also bug the crud out of folks to find out what the surprise is supposed to be.  Normally would like their resistance to be higher and not to know, but in this case it'd be nice to have it over with and it be next Wed and have them just tell me what the frak's up and where we're going from here.  Waited a year and months now... what's another 5 or 6 days, right?  Pain.  One of those moments where it would be nice to have that somebody to hold me and tell me it's going to be ok whether it is or not.  It's only been a month and I've almost forgotten what the pain was like.  Before I couldn't go more than a few days before it came back and it kind of always stuck around the hands.  But WEEKS in a row without..... think more than anything else I'm dreading being in pain again, even if J & M will be around for company/distraction off/on over the weekend.

Guess I should keep working on the laundry so I can get the comfy pjs packed.  The stone I'll be stepping on tomorrow's unsteady, but would still appreciate the company if anyone wants to join me on it and hold my hand.  Think I'll be awake for the procedure.  Wish I wasn't.  But if I am, could definitely use some virtual hand holding to stay steady.  Totally wish they hadn't told me they were sticking me with a really long needle to get the chunks of my kidney out.  *sighs*

*huggles*

Night night folks.  Will update when I'm coherent tomorrow or over the weekend.