Was down to 3mg of the prednisone. It hurt, but was bearable. 2mg was a bit worse but it's still only my right arm giving me issues; elbrow, wrist and fingers. Today I went for 0. Arm is pretty much throbbing. Straightening my elbow or moving my wrist or curling my fingers is almost a no go at this point. Was taking tramadol to help. Helped at 3. Made a dent in it at 2. Barely scratching the surface at 0.
Facts are now if I have any chance of getting off the prednisone I'm going to have to get back on the methotrexate. I'm not sure how much longer I can hold out on the low dose of the prednisone. Ideal amount seems to be anywhere from 3-5mg's depending on the day.
With insurance costs going up next year over all and specialist copays going up 20 more bucks to 50, I need to be on less medications I have to pay out for to try and make up the difference. With that and rent going up...... I'm just never going to get ahead. I'm brought back to the needing a second job or a roommate debate.
Hurting makes it hard to think. Feeling rather lost today and useless. MF was laid off from her job today and C was in a car accident followed by her bunghole boss yelling at her. Both called me in tears and all I could do is listen. I wish there was more I could do for them. All I sadly have right now is an ear and a shoulder and prayers. Still wish I could do more.
One of those days where it's strange to think two years ago my life was completely different. No pain and married and happy-ish depending on if it was a good communication day. Things are so different now. And even being surrounded by my closest friends I can still manage to feel so alone. Wish I could ditch that alone feeling.
Points for effort.
No comments:
Post a Comment