When everything's made to be broken... just want you to know who I am...

Well, that was unexpected.

So the highlights *smirks* from yesterday are that I got in just after 8 to BFE south for the injection-o-stuff.  Stuff turned out to be a low level gamma radiation.  The she-hulk jokes and lights being turned off in my lab to see if I glowed were rampant :-D  Went back just after noon and got scanned up and I totally glowed from the inside.  ALSO the tech doing the scan was cool enough to let me watch as it was going once it got past my head.  Incredibly nifty stuff.

Side note: When I first met imaging tech man for the injection I said "shiny" instead of "cool" to something he said and with his look of confusion tried to explain to him its origins and then referenced about another half dozen tv shows that were ish to Firefly or sci-fi or anything that could come close to cowboys in space and as soon as we sat down he looks me in the eye and says "You're a geek, aren't you? God bless you."  *blinks*  I laughed and confirmed his suspicions.  Now I'm just wondering if that was meant as a good thing or not ;-)

Down side to yesterday was I had to stand for a couple more scans after the full body as I am of girth now to where my arms didn't make it in the scan.  Talk about embarrassing. So, standing and plastering myself to the scanner was interesting as my bum right knee is going to give out I believe within the next few weeks.  Survived, though, and tech of awesome told me that I should expect the results sent to doc in a couple days meaning I should hear back Mon.  Thanked him for his time and headed back into work.

Upside to today is I got an email this morning with the results so a much better turn-around time than expected.

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FINDINGS:
Bones: Normal physiologic distribution of activity.
Joints: There is uptake in the right knee which is typical for
degenerative change.
Soft tissues: Physiologic distribution throughout the soft tissues
and excretory system.

IMPRESSION:
No evidence for metastatic pattern.
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No call yet to explain the above, but my general gathering is my right knee is shot (knew that) and that everything else looks good.  So our big question is if the right knee being frakked it what would have caused that previous bloodwork showing up abnormal on the bone level stuff or if it's still something else he wants to keep looking into.  If the former, I'm just going to have to wait until my hopefully awesome bonus comes in to get my knee checked out.  If the latter, then I'm off to some other specialist and more tests and missed work and so on.  Here's hoping it was my knee just setting things off.

Oh, got my first medical bill of the year in the mail yesterday!  A whole $12.55 :-)  I know this is just the beginning of what's going to be coming in up to $2500 throughout the year, but was nice that the first one wasn't that awful.  Even went ahead and paid it out of the spare change that was left.  Even better is it actually came out to $10.04 because I paid it in full through Clinical Pathological Laboratories website which takes 20% off when you give them the whole tamale.  Wasn't a lot off, but still better than nothing.

Feeling a bit down this morning L and I were talking about life, the universe and everything and at one point I told him I was broken and he of course said I wasn't because that's a term that's used to describe something that can't fulfill its function.  I listed out for him the things that I can't do anymore, walking being one that's the most difficult right now with my whacked out knee, and here's what he said:

You're a beautiful, intelligent woman who is important to a lot of people, and who makes their lives brighter and more fun. You're making an impact on the world. I know it's frustrating, love. You're a free spirit, and not being able to do what you want to do is one of the most frustrating feelings. I know, because I'm the same way.
And yes, right now is a really rough time.

But once I'm working, I can help. The financial stress should lessen over time, allowing you to work on improving other parts of your life more easily, and hopefully allowing you to enjoy your life more.

Yes, there were some tears.  I hate asking for help from anyone and it's rough accepting it even if I break down and finally have to ask.  But I really have been truly blessed to have someone in my life who genuinely wants to see me well and burden free on every level he can help with.  It's kind of overwhelming.  A good overwhelming, but still a lot to take in and accept.  We've been dating a month and a half-ish now and his outpouring of love and friendship and just holding my hand when I need it most is more than I even expected anyone to do or that I felt I even came close to deserving after how I've been treated by those I've been with in the past.  Now just gotta not mess this good thing up.

Infusion is 7 days out now.  Roommate is 8 days out.  Needing to get that room emptied for B is 2 days out. Hopefully my bonus is 4 weeks out.  Busy busy.  Just gotta hold on a little longer then the 2000 parts should be feeling a lot better in about 2 weeks.  *crosses fingers*